How do I let go of all these happy memories him and I shared? How do I face myself to do the things I use to love that we grew to do together, such as watching the office or sharing a Ruben sandwich? It seems as though the simplest things are the hardest things to do.
They weren’t kidding when they say getting over someone is one of the hardest things to do, especially when you are one who decides to end it off. I have never had to let someone go when I really don’t want to but deep down I know it is whats best for me.
It would be so easy if he was some asshole who didn’t give two craps about me, but he has showed me what unconditional love looks like. Though some of you are thinking why just stay with him…that’s where I need to focus on the facts. If I force someone to change at my expense, I know that down the road things will fall apart. That is because I know that person can’t be their true self. It sucks when he is what I want but don’t need. All I am thinking of is “if he didn’t smoke pot”, “if we met on different terms”…..maybe it wouldn’t hurt so much.
HOW DO PEOPLE DO THIS?! How do people battle this unending sharp pain in the chest, that feels like you have 100lb rocks just sitting where your heart was? How do people get over the one they love? How do people love again? How do people sleep during rough nights like these where all you do is see his face, feel his touch, smell his good scent, hear his laugh. WHY IS THIS SO HARD?!